Believe….

The latest edition of Papercraft’s Card Creations comes with mixed feelings for me. So excited to have two designs, published in it, my first “large” special edition Papercrafts publication and so VERY excited to have one of my designs inspire the Editor’s Pick at the beginning! Which also brings me right back to my very mixed feelings. The card Believe was inspired by my mom.

Many of you know that my mom passed away five weeks ago. I had hoped that she would live to see it in print but that was not to be. Her decline was so rapid the last few weeks, I would not have wished it for her. Mom did see it before I mailed it in to the editor and she thought it was beautiful. She was so great at supporting me and sharing in my joy when I managed to get a design accepted. I miss that. I miss talking to her every morning. I miss her joy. I miss her care. I was thinking of giving this card away but now I know that I’ll be keeping it close.

Believe Card

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As I mentioned above, this card was designed for my mom last January. I thought it would be a beautiful card for a cancer patient, especially one who was terminally ill. It is so hard to find the words to say the right thing. Get well soon is just not appropriate. The inside sentiment was to be… Believe, in a better tomorrow. Appropriate for anyone going through hard times. My mom is now in her “better tomorrow”. She believed. And I do too.

I also thought this design would work well for a graduation or for someone starting a new phase in their life. So simple, so fresh…full of new possibilities. In that instance, what about the sentiment, Believe…. the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

My Mom

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I came across this beautiful picture of my mom with my two youngest boys. It was taken two years ago, in the hospital just after the birth of Joshua. She had been diagnosed with Melanoma the week before. I thought I’d share it with you here. I must admit, it has me crying yet again. Joshua just saw it & was for calling for Nana. I cherish each wonderful memory I have of her. While writing this has been very hard, in a way, it is also very good. A song by Jeremy Camp came to mind while writing this and I’ll end by sharing it with you…

Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I’ve never felt so torn before
Seems I don’t know where to start
But its now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don’t see, I still believe

I believe I’ll be seeing Mom again. I believe.

If you’d like to purchase Card Creations 5, you can order direct from the Papercrafts site HERE. I can’t wait to get my copy! The joys of living in Canada…lol, you get delivery after everyone eles. BTW, if you do, my other design is called Black & White Congrats and I hear you can find it in the Congratulations section. :)

Supply List: whisper white cardstock – Stampin Up, patterned paper – Sassafras Lass, crystal brad – Making Memories ,sentiment rub-ons – Royal & Langnickel, sewing machine

50 responses to “Believe….

  1. Thank you so much for sharing this, Julia. I’m crying with you. (((((((((((Hugs))))))))) Sue

  2. Cheryl rowley

    Having lost my mom two years ago I still have the feelings you write about. When you miss someone so much everyday is a challenge. You express so well what it’s like and I thank you. Your words made me cry and sometimes that’s a good thing. Thanks for your words, Julia.

  3. Julia,
    i love paper crafts! Congratulations on being published, and with such a special card!your mom did get to “see” this! This is from your heart and that, is visible to everyone, here and gone. your mom is proud, and so are we! {hugs}
    janice

  4. Judy Linsenman

    Here is something I think saved from splitcoaststampers for you. You will be surprised in years to come what snippets of memories or warm feelings your son will have regarding your mom. I know I am now that ours are grown and how they discuss their grandpa…taken by lymphoma almost 20 years ago.

    Death is nothing at all
    I have only slipped away into the next room.
    I am I, and you are you.
    Whatever we were to each other,
    that we still are.
    Call me by my old familiar name,
    speak to me in the way which you always used.
    Put no difference in your tone,
    wear no forced air or solemnity or sorrow.
    Laugh as we always laughed,
    at little jokes we both enjoyed together.
    Let my name be ever the household word
    that it always was,
    let it be spoken without effect,
    Without the trace of a shadow on it.
    Life means all that it ever meant.
    It is the same as it ever was;
    there is unbroken continuity.
    Why should I be out of mind
    because I am out of sight?
    I am waiting for you,
    for an interval
    somewhere very near,
    just around the corner.
    All is well.

  5. Blessings on your day, Julia. Your mom must be so very proud of you and what a blessing that she did get to see this beautiful card you created.

    It seems most of us deeply miss our parents who have passed, no matter how short or how long it’s been since their passing. Parents play such a huge and important roll in our lives and help to make us what we are today. I must admit I still feel the ache you are experiencing, though it may be dulled a little, it is still there and always will be. And, when I feel that ache, it is an opportunity to call up the many good memories of mom or dad, and that memory bandaid soothes the present pain.

    {{{Hugs to you}}}. May your memory bandaid comfort you today and God’s love sustain you always.
    Joyce

  6. Thank you for sharing, Julia.
    You just about had me crying too. Your mom seems like she was a really beautiful person, inside and out.

    Congratulations on your publications.

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  8. Julia, that was beautiful. I have a dear friend who lost her mom last year. She still is often hit by waves of loss…. sadness that she can’t share her joys of motherhood. You’re card really touched me and I’ll be CASING it for this special friend. Thanks so much for sharing. Your mom sounds like an amazing lady.

    {{hugs}}

    Susanna

  9. Julia, I don’t even know what to say….except that you really have such a healthy outlook on everything. Your mom is sure to be smiling down at you….I am sure you make her proud!

  10. Julia,
    Your card is stunning. You are so very creative! Your words about your mom just broke my heart. I lost my mom when I was 18 (24 years ago) and yes, it does get easier but you never forget. I remember the sadness and hurt that followed for years. The picture of your mom is beautiful. She looked like a wonderful, wonderful woman. I can say that I TOTALLY understand and hope that your happy memories will heal your heart over time…..

    Lynda

  11. Julia,
    Your card is lovely and so versatile. I, too, just lost my mother, and feel as you do. Every day is tough, but some are tougher. Your mother looked so sweet and kind, as mine was. We are so lucky to have so many great memories of them.I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, as we move forward in this journey w/o them.
    Peggy

  12. Julia – I am crying. What a beautiful tribute. I know you Mom is smiling down on you. Congratulations and God bless.
    Lorri

  13. Just found your blog and it’s so amazing!

    Wow what a stunning card with such a sad story… bless your heart.

    Off for a look round!

    xx

  14. Beautiful card and what a special picture!

    Lots of hugs,
    Sharlene

  15. ematson (SCS ematson)

    “Thank you so much for sharing this, Julia. I’m crying with you. (((((((((((Hugs))))))))) Sue”

    My sentiments exactly.

    Beth

  16. Julila,

    Such a beautiful memory of your mother. I’m crying with you. Today is my mother’s birthday…and she has been gone for quite some time. But the love I have for her will live on forever in my heart….just as yours will.

    {{{HUGS}}} to you, my friend.

    Michelle R

  17. I know that was hard (but healing as well); as your wounds are still fresh from her passing. I rejoice with you in your accomplishments! What a sweet picture – thanks for sharing {HUG}

  18. Congratulations on your publication. Your card is beautiful. How nice that your mom was able to see it before you mailed it off. I believe that she is really with you and can see that you were published. TFS.

  19. Julia,
    It’s way to early in the morning for all of us to be crying too! Your card is beautiful and I am sure that your Mother is seeing it in heaven right now – and she is so proud.
    Thank you for sharing some of your wonderful memories and feelings with us!!

  20. Jeremy Camp has such a wonderful gift for putting God’s truth to music. God has given you a wonderful gift to Julia. Your card is lovely and you have blessed others by sharing it and the memories of your mother. You will see her again…and it will be a glorious day!
    Peace,
    Patti

  21. You’ve officially made me cry. Beautiful card and amazing words. I don’t want to even think of the day… sorry for your loss.
    Misty

  22. Your card is beautiful Julia and was perfect for your Mom. I am sorry for your loss, but know that your Mom is looking down on you and is very proud. Hugs!

  23. This is a truly beautiful creation. Knowing the story behind it makes it even more beautiful and it brings tears to my eyes. Tears of sadness, but also of hope, knowing that your mom is in a better place now.

  24. Julia – thanks for sharing that with us – what you wrote, and the card, are just beautiful. Thinking of you –

    Beth (mommy to an almost-4 yr old)

  25. {{{{{{{{{JULIA}}}}}}}}} You card is just stunning and what an honor for it to be the Editors Pick! Your mom is so beautiful! Such a sweet picture! Hugs to you my friend!

  26. Oh, bless you, I feel your pain…it’s so hard to lose someone so special and close to you. This year will be 27 years since my Mom passed away, but I still wish I could talk to her…she died way too young, at 53..but also from cancer. Your Mom looks like such a sweet, special person! Cherish your memories, cry when you need to, it does help…and know that she loved you and your children so very much…be grateful for the great relationship you had with her….I’m so sorry you have lost this special person in your life. The card you made is absolutely stunning! You should be so proud that it is honored in the publication. You must frame it, and it will always be a reminder of what you did for your Mom..
    {{{{HUGS}}}}} from an online admirer of your beautiful work…

  27. Julia- I already thought this card was beautiful with the soft colors and lines then the bold sentiment in contrast. Now that I know the story behind it, I am truely in awe. As beautiful as the card is, your eloquent post this morning has completely touched my heart. Please know that you continue in my thoughts. Take care.

  28. Yes, add me to the list of cryers in the bunch. I know the heartache will continue but the memories will in time help fill that emptiness in your heart. I pray for God’s peace and His joy to help fill that emptiness. I know someday I’ll get to meet you and your mom in heaven.

  29. Julia, This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing your feelings and the special photo of your mom. You have inspired me a great deal with your courage to carry on in spite of losing a very precious part of your life. I know someday I’ll have to face that same thing as my mom is getting up there in years (78) and we have a very close relationship like you had with your mom. I only hope that when the time comes to face this situation that I’ll be able to deal with it with as much courage as you have. God Bless you always & may you continue to “Believe.” Ida

  30. Julia, this is such a meaningful post, and I am so glad that this gorgeous card was an Editor’s pick. Your Mom was beautiful, and I can see that you have her eyes. She will always be with you and I know that she is smiling down on you!
    {{{{{{{{{{{Julia}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  31. What a sweet post today. I lost my Mom to breast cancer almost 14 years ago…just five short weeks after my son was born. I was very thankful that she got to see him, though. My thoughts are with you and your family. That picture of your Mom and your boys is priceless.

  32. Your mother sounds like a very special woman, I’m sure that she is was proud of you! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and the very special picture. My heart aches for your loss. ((((((hugs))))). Congrats on having this card published, I’m sure you’ll forever cherish this card. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

  33. Julia, your card and your picture of your mom are so beautiful. What a treasure to have your card shared in Card Creations.

  34. Sharing in the joy of your success and in the memory of your Mother. Loss and grief are such personal things that I really don’t know what to say that can be a comfort. I am thinking of you today.

    ~NG.

  35. Your card is beautiful and so was your Mom. I know these memories are bittersweet. Congratulations on your Editor’s Pick honor. It’s well deserved.

  36. I, too, lost my mom several years ago but in a different way. Diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease 10 years ago, she very quickly moved into the advanced stages and has not recognized or spoken in 4 years. Sadly, she is “gone”, but her physical presence makes her “leaving” all that much harder to bear.

    Such a beautiful card and beautiful song that you chose to share with us tonight. Thank you. Sending you {{{hugs}}}

  37. It’s a beautiful card! Cherish it forever! My mother-in-law passed away four years ago of melanoma cancer. It was devastating. She was only 56. Time does heal some of it, but the sense of loss never really goes away. I am so sorry you had to endure that loss.

    It’s so great that you were published with such a meaningful card! Congrats on that and thanks for sharing your story!

  38. Julia, I have a tear just reading this….your mom surely was a special person. I love the photo! Congrats on the card- it’s beautiful.

  39. I love the lyrics in Jeremy Camp’s songs too.

  40. I believe our loved ones never die. Their physical containers may no longer be with us but their essence goes into each person who was part of thier lives. We are who we are because of them and parts of each one we love embeds itself in each of us forever. I have my brother’s spirit with me every time I watch Star Trek and my dad’s tenacity when I am stuggling. My grampa’s common sense and my gramma’s frugality. I would be nothing but a plain ordinary container without those who were here before.

  41. Julia,

    I’m so very sorry to hear about your Mom. What a beautiful card. I’m so glad she was able to see it. I hope that with time any of the pain it invokes will be replaced with nothing but sweet memories.

    Hugs,

    Kathie

  42. Julia,

    Your card is beautiful, and so is your story. My wish for you is that your wonderful memories of your mom will carry you through your grief and difficult times. Thanks for sharing that part of yourself and your life with all of us. Congratulations on your publications — you are so deserving of it!

    Hugs,

    Christina

  43. Karen Reynolds

    Julia,
    Congrats your publication. We all share your excitement and joy.
    How well I know your pain, having lost both my parents, unexpectedly, within 8 months of each other, not long after the sudden death of my 48 yr old husband.
    I, too believe we will be together again. Thank you for sharing the wonderful memories of your Mom.

    Hugs, Karen
    (and thanks again for the stamps)

  44. Sweetheart, your in our thoughts. It’s a lovely card and an even more lovely sentiment behind it.

  45. Julia,

    The card is beautiful and so are you!!! ( Very talented too!) Losing a parent is very difficult, (Yes I’ve been through it, more than once) and yes as the time passes it gets SLOWLY more of a part of day to day life. I’m not sure it’s a “getting over it” type of event. All of the special moments/memories you and your familiy have shared are in your minds and hearts forever…and when you are again together…I certainly BELIEVE….you will see that there wasn’t anything to really “get over”. Life on this earth is in a constant state of change, sometimes it’s happier, other times sad, sometimes harder, sometimes like there was no effort put forth at all (that’s when the angels were helping) :-)
    How blessed you were to have her for as long as you did!!! She certainly looks like she was a happy and well loved person in the picture. Prayers of Peace to you and your family.
    Congratulations on the cards as well!! You certainly deserve it…and your mom is smiling down happy in your accomplishments!!! Enjoy your accolades…you’ve earned it!!

    Peace & Laughter,

    Tina Suzan

  46. Wow. I love that song, and will always think of you and your mom. Thanks so much for sharing such an intimate moment with us. I’ll get a copy of the mag, – congrats, sweet sorrow, sweet success. Much love and prayers to you.

  47. (((Julia))) It’s a beautiful card, and your mom looked like a wonderful person! :) My thoughts are with you.

  48. This is so beautiful and I commend you for making yourself vulnerable and letting us into the challenges you face in your life. I believe it will help others going through similar struggles and will help you to heal and celebrate the memory of your mother!

  49. {{{{{{J}}}}}} Congrats on your card being selected as Editor’s Pick. What an honor and so deserving. It’s just gorgeous. And thanks for sharing your mom’s pretty picture. It’s so sweet. Big hugs, my friend.

  50. I’m so sorry about your mom. What a beautiful tribute to her! I just got my Card Creations magazine. I’m sure your mother is smiling down from heaven!

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